Benzos are a gift and a curse. I hate anti depressants in all forms, they always make your worse before "better" but also come with a shit ton of side effects like you said, which leads to other forms of depression, just a trade off really. I'm hoping I can make some hash from this crop, perhaps that will help.KD wrote: ↑Mon Dec 06, 2021 12:56 amYeah I started on alprazolam (xanax) which was amazing at first... But soon wore off in effectiveness... So then they upped my dose of alprazolam and started me on escitralopram. That's when shit hit the fan. Had to stop working... Kept getting panic attacks still although I could sleep now so they upped the dose again. The dickhead doctor didn't tell me any side effects or anything though so I googled them one night and was like SHIIIIIIT. I'd just found out I couldn't just stop taking them by this point so spoke to my doc who referred me to a psychologist and upped my meds again! I realised I wasnt feeling anything anymore, and decided to stop taking them. Weaned myself off them over a month or so and my mate, who also has anxiety, gave me some hash to help me through the withdrawals. Best thing ever because not only did that help me sleep, it calmed my mind in the day too and didn't trigger anxiety at all.Growmie wrote: ↑Sun Dec 05, 2021 3:46 pmanova.330 wrote: ↑Sun Dec 05, 2021 3:42 pmHere’s my experience with number six to cure anxiety.
Paxil. After taking this for 30 days, I could start to smell the air again, start to breathe freely, but it didn’t end there. After 90 days, I felt like a new person. The one side effect was I could not wake up from a sleep. Took me forever to get past that but this pill definitely save my life at one point.
Lexapro. I took this much later in life. It quickly made me a zombie and after about a week I moved to something else.
I was on Paxil for quite a few years. If one of these does work then you’re lucky but when it doesn’t work you have to try another.
Cycled through the lot mate, SSRIs, snris, trycilics. Only escitalopram did anything half decent but came with its only set of problems. Never tried paxil though so maybe one to ask about, although my body doesn't respond well to SSRIs most of the time.
Sorted, I'll just start smoking weed again right? Hell no! THC raises my heart rate too much which makes my head think I'm having a panic attack, that then triggers a panic attack and a whirlpool of out of control, worst case scenario thought loops. Throw in some uncontrollable crying and hyperventilation and you've basically entered a state of absolute hell for those that don't know what it's like. It's awful!
So @Growmie why am I telling you what you already know?
CBD hits different. The first time I tried it, I got a slight head buzz and thought "great... Here we go" then nothing! I sat and smoked a whole joint of it and cried with happiness because not only did I physically feel like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders... It was like all my stress had melted off me, my body and mind relaxed for the first time in ages, and I just felt like I'd slipped into a nice hot bath for an hour to chill. For someone who's mind refuses to relax because of the amount of shit that's been thrown at it... This was the absolute best feeling in the world. Please please talk to your doctor about CBD and coming off the pills and start off with a 1:20 THC/CBD if you can. I'm working my way towards a stronger ratio of 1:1 but I'm enjoying life again.
You're going to have heard this a million times but it's all in your head... Which means you CAN control it yourself. I've started a new job as a chef and I'm having to learn everything from scratch and the anxiety hits hard when those orders fly in but I have to have a word with myself and sort of say "go away" to that feeling and focus on what needs doing. It's always there but the CBD deffo helps.
Feel free to DM me if you want to talk about anything... Ever! It doesn't matter how big or small it is, if you need to vent, I got you dude! Talking helps too.
Once again, you hit the nail on the head, raises my heart rate and blood pressure ( on top of the anxiety of actually toking doing that already) spins me right into that hell space you explained. It really is the worst. I'd give almost anything to never feel that way again! Unfortunately that's how I feel every day at the moment.
I'm so glad you are getting through it and have made progress, honestly reading the part about the weight coming off your shoulders and enjoying life again makes me feel like crying, one because I'm happy for you and two because it gives me some light in the darkness. I don't think my doctor will be interested but I most certainly will try to grow some out, even tempted to buy some online to just test it out, when I have some money behind me at least.
Although we both know it's just in our heads, we also both know that it's easier said than done fighting those feelings on a daily basis. But I am really happy for you mate, that you seem to be on the right track and congrats with the new job! I hope that's also still going well for you. I'm totally sold on the CBD bro I'll get some at the first opportunity for sure.
I really appreciate the offer brother thank you and will most certainly take you up on that! Also you know where I am if you ever want to vent/talk etc just drop me a DM.
@KD Cheers brother
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